Thursday, November 15, 2007
Peggy reads the names from CDs on her shelf. Jock Jams, Wallflowers, No Doubt, Mariah Carey, Smash Mouth, Puff Daddy featuring Faith Evans on the I'll Be Missing You single, Jewel, Third Eye Blind, Meredith Brooks, Spice Girls, The Verve Pipe, Sugar Ray. Peggy hasn't bought a CD since 1998 and she doesn't intend to. She walks over to the stack of CDs near the CD player. She sees The Cardigans and Monica, she puts them back on the shelf. She walks over to the CD player and opens it to see what is inside: Jimmy Ray, self titled.
She shrugs her shoulders and hums as she presses the button on the machine. Peggy dances slightly as the song starts and Jimmy Ray begins the album, "Weeellll...". Peggy sings along and begins to dance more violently, "Are you Johnny Ray? Are you Slim Ray? Are you Paid Ray?" She spreads her feet, her sweatpants sag, she bends her neck so her hair hangs behind her back, "Who wants to know? Who wants to know-oh-oh?" She walks back into the kitchen dancing every few steps. She picks up a spoon and holds it up like a microphone. "Are you Sting Ray? Are you Nick Ray?" She sings louder, "Are you Jimmy Ray? Who want's to know? Who want's to know-oh?" Peggy puts down the spoon and walks into her bedroom. She sits on the bed. She keeps moving her head to the beat. Peggy opens the window. As soon as she opens it an animal vocalizes on the other side. She slams the window shut. Her heart is racing. Jimmy Ray keeps singing in the other room. Peggy is scared, she looks to make sure the curtains are drawn. For a second she imagines Jimmy Ray dancing on the other side of the window. Peggy wishes she was at a party and lays on the bed. She puts her hand on her chest and feels it vibrate from the heavy heart beat beneath.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
OliFiles97: cool, when will you be back around
OliFiles97: also what are you doing after this semester...i am on sababtical myself
Everybodypoops44: not sure probably be around the 13th or so
Everybodypoops44: i am a couple semesters away from finishing
OliFiles97: so no sababtical?
Everybodypoops44: i already finished mine
OliFiles97: well everyone else is into bad shit, and if you want to just hang out it’s cool with me
Everybodypoops44: What is everyone up to these days?
OliFiles97: its really not that great
Everybodypoops44: whos still around?
OliFiles97: the general, and the humlys when they come up for more h
OliFiles97: the general is still alright
OliFiles97: everyone else is a thief
OliFiles97: it breaks my heart to say that but thats how it is
Everybodypoops44: i believe it
OliFiles97: fucking fiends
Everybodypoops44: dumbass bitches man
Everybodypoops44: they will die soon
OliFiles97: make your bed and lie in it
Everybodypoops44: and we will live through thier death .
Everybodypoops44: hows nate doin, do you know?
OliFiles97: no, there was a big falling out over a bunch of shit and i dont have contact with nate also ross is scarce as usual
OliFiles97: stad is gone
Everybodypoops44: tosh on drugs?
OliFiles97: probably he’s in the thick of it
Everybodypoops44: i know at least pizzolla is doing all right
OliFiles97: thank god
OliFiles97: or whatever
OliFiles97: you know
Everybodypoops44: yea h
Everybodypoops44: is the general all h now or is he still chill
Everybodypoops44: did the oc dealers get arrested, or did the kids just finally realize that doing herons everyday is cheaper
OliFiles97: they will all go down
OliFiles97: thats the path
OliFiles97: but i got a job and shit so its not like i'll be scrounging come new years or any other time, nice flush bank account etc
Everybodypoops44: the busy life is the good life
OliFiles97: you're talking to someone who wants to shoot himself currently so i dont know about that
OliFiles97: they still haven't "fixed" my head
Everybodypoops44: it makes my heart feel dark to hear these things about home
OliFiles97: sorry its the truth
Everybodypoops44: no sorry
OliFiles97: im still here, im still me, i still have honor and decency
Everybodypoops44: well dont shoot yourself
OliFiles97: im trying not too
OliFiles97: thanksgiving is ass-fest 2007
OliFiles97: so i'll be around at least for that
OliFiles97: also christmas is ass-fest
OliFiles97: but i told my girl that when im with my friends they come first
OliFiles97: she can just sit there if she wants to be there at all
Everybodypoops44: thats how it goes
OliFiles97: exactly, shes happy enough to just let me be me (god thats strange)
Everybodypoops44: hah well thats good enough
OliFiles97: cant wait to see you
OliFiles97: still got my numbeer? otherwise i start calling the 14th
Everybodypoops44: yeah man, it will be good to sit down. I think I have it.
OliFiles97: fuck yeah, i need a peer (if you'll allow me the title) to hang out with
OliFiles97: got some good ideas
Everybodypoops44: its gotta be killing you to just be up there with the empty containers of everyone we used to know everyday
OliFiles97: like i said i feel like shooting myself
OliFiles97: they are all different people
OliFiles97: barely recognizable as the people they were....OC and H took a toll on our group
OliFiles97: its like me and you now
Everybodypoops44: yeah im sorry man i feel for you
OliFiles97: its alright, i feel for you, they are your friends too
OliFiles97: but they cant be trusted its sad
OliFiles97: i dont care anymore what their story is i give out no more loans
OliFiles97: the bank of oliver files is closed
OliFiles97: robbed too many times
Everybodypoops44: all banks are destroyed now. we have been robbed.
OliFiles97: exactly, im glad you are still in good mind and body
OliFiles97: everyone will get pissed i talked shit about them but fuck that its what they are and its what they do
OliFiles97: you kow i stay on the wine
Everybodypoops44: i talked to humly the other day, he sounded all right. I never would of guessed. Yeah I have been fighting through it. you know how it goes. some days the tv is where i am and I sit and do nothing just to carry on. But other days there is energy. everyday is like church. if church was something worthwhile and not just a buisness.
Everybodypoops44: yeah i have started drinking a little more
OliFiles97: more than happy to give you the tour when you get here. i dont do bars but i crack a bottle
Everybodypoops44: yeah we can crack a bottle.
OliFiles97: im into german whites still, and ruby ports (mostly)
Everybodypoops44: i have been exploring the whiskies of the world
OliFiles97: we'll get a good cigar or two and have a cognac and cigar night
OliFiles97: amen for whiskey
OliFiles97: fuck yeah we are on the same level man.... its gonna be fun to hang out with a real person again
OliFiles97: but i got to go finish this damn paper....i swear ill start calling the 14th im starved for stimulation
OliFiles97: but yeah when you get your plans in order let me know, i say we start with cheese pizza
Everybodypoops44: i nice tony's trip
OliFiles97: but i g2g..illl talk to you later about schedules..i got busy work until the 17th
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Jimmy Ray stands up and shakes his hips at a locomotive as the filter of his cigarette burns. And it’s a small train.
“Shorter than the ones in
“Look mom that man with the long face looks like he is trying to catch something falling from space!”
Jimmy Ray screams at some little boy pointing a finger at him in a train window. He screams at a couple hundred passenger car windows that pass right by him but all the blurring colors resemble that boy or something that looks like McDonalds BigMac, Jimmy Ray wasn’t sure which.
“Fuck you! You don’t know anything about ’97!” Jimmy Ray throws a rock at the side of the train. It hits. Jimmy Ray sits to light another cigarette and the train passes past and then it is just Jimmy Ray sitting smoking a cigarette next to a train track alone. He takes out his whiskey and throws the empty bottle against the metal. The glass shatters. There is a mix of rocks, glass, metal above the earth on the ground. There are burn marks between each of his knuckles. Jimmy Ray thinks that that pose he just stood up and struck for all those fans on that train just a few moments ago was awesome. Jimmy Ray thinks that the hand on the hip was a great touch and wonders why he didn’t use the move more in ’97. It doesn’t matter Jimmy Ray still has it. His body shakes a little cause it’s cold out.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
“What the fuck?” The driver yells as he loses control of the vehicle on the road. The car turns one and a half rotations and comes to a stop.
“What the fuck was that, man?” Someone says from the backseat.
“I dunno. It looked like a humming bird or a little bat or something.” The driver leans forward and looks at a small crack in the windshield. “It cracked the windshield.”
“It cracked the windshield? What cracked the windshield?” Someone wearing a yellow T-shirt says from the backseat.
“That little fucking batbird thing. It cracked the windshield.”
The person in the yellow T-shirt leans forward between the two front seats, touching the people sitting in the front with their fingers. “Oh yeah, it cracked the windshield a little there.”
“Well, is everyone okay?” The driver says looking at each person in the car. Each person nods to each other. Everyone is okay. The driver puts the car in drive. “Alright then, back at it, WOOOOOOOOOO.” The driver yells as he accelerates toward the intersection.
A person in the backseat screams out the window at a cat crossing the street as the car turns the corner. "Party! Party! WOOOO. See you at the party you little soggy-" The voice trails off as the distance grows.
The rock landed in a puddle near an incline in the sidewalk next to the gated entrance of a parking lot. The cat nears the rock as it walks along the side of the building staying under the awning where it can. The cat has on a fluorescent green collar with a heart shaped tag on it. The tag reflects in the streetlight, it says: COLESLAW #113578836. Coleslaw continues up the street, eventually moving out of the light, where the car had come from earlier. Eventually the rain stops and the planet rotates so that this part is in the sun. After a few hours the puddle dries and the rock sits on the street. A couple of children wearing backpacks walk up with street with their mother. One of the kids kicks the rock as they walk. The rock is kicked two and a half blocks, and as the mother and children near the bus stop the child stands in the road for a second. The rock sits on the asphalt, the small shoe makes contact and it rolls into a drain where it is carried by a current of old rainwater towards the treatment plant.
The children wait at the bus stop with their mother. The bus arrives. The two of them run up the stairs silently to find a seat on the bus. The mother puts a foot on the bottom step.
“How ya doin, Peggy?” The mother says to the driver.
“Oh, it’s okay. Nothing doing today really. I am looking forward to relaxing tonight.”
“You have special plans or something?”
“Oh, no no. I just don’t have any other work tonight, so after I drop these guys off.” Peggy points into the mostly empty bus with her thumb. “I am going to kick my feet up and see what TV looks like these days.”
“Well that sounds nice. Have a good morning, Peggy.”
“You too, Heather.” Peggy pushes the lever to close the two doors to the bus.